Today I feel as though my mind and body belong to someone else. As I tried to think of something clever and witty to write this morning, the brain fog, extreme exhaustion, and overall heavy feeling in my body has left me with little to work with.
Days like this I just pray for sleep to take over, as I don’t know how I will make it through an entire day feeling this bad. I pray for the sleep to come and I pray for relief from the pain and overall nightmare of CFS to leave. It would be so much easier to deal with this illness if I knew there was an end to it. I would even be happy if it were just something I had to deal with once a month, but it’s not. I have to live with it every single day of my life and until medical science catches up and finds a cure, I have to continually learn how to live with it. I have to continue fighting and trying to take care of my family regardless of how bad I feel. Every step I take, every little thing I do in my life when I feel this bad is a major chore. It reminds me of how much we take advantage of being able to do the smallest thing daily without thinking. I long for those days again.
As soon as my son leaves for school I am back to bed and hoping when I wake up some of this terrible feeling will be gone…
((hugs)) I know what you mean.
Wouldn’t it be great if we could just crawl back under the coves and we woke up again it would be all gone away?
Ahh what a dream!
Mad goat – that would be great! Oh well, real life isn’t like that all of the time.
Hi Jenna, I know that those out there reading this blog understand what it is like.
It would be so much easier to deal with this illness if I knew there was an end to it. I would even be happy if it were just something I had to deal with once a month, but it’s not.
That’s exactly right. If it we could see a light at the end of the tunnel it would be so much easier to deal with. In some ways time is on our side and in other ways it’s our arch enemy. We never know from one day/hour to the next what this illness will bring.
I sure hope you’re feeling better soon. I don’t have CFS but it sure sounds like a lot worse than Fibro. Rest when you feel like you need it. Yeah like I should be giving that advice…
Hang in there Sandy!
Thanks everyone! 🙂