It is one week today since my surgery and I still feel as though I am recovering from the anesthesia. I actually have more pain in my leg now than what I did the first couple of days after my surgery. I was at the doctor’s office yesterday because of the pus coming out of the incision on my groin and he said that it wasn’t bad and just to put peroxide on it and to keep the area dry. How in the world do I keep the groin area dry in the summer heat? Easier said than done. My blood pressure was up again today – 128/82, which is not that high but for me it is. My blood pressure usually runs in the low 100s and my bottom number usually was always in the 60s or 70s. Last week at the doctor’s office my blood pressure was high, the day of my surgery it was high, and after my surgery they had trouble stabilizing it.
I went grocery shopping yesterday and I was exhausted by the time we were finished. I did walk through the store instead of riding the cart because the doctor wants me walking. I came home and crashed after grocery shopping and my doctor’s appointment.
I don’t remember feeling like this after my last surgery over two years ago. I know the first couple of days I was in a fog but I don’t remember being like that for seven days. I have no desire to do anything and yesterday I was crying. I haven’t even had any desire to work on this website and that is really unusual for me. I feel as though I am depressed along with the fog. Did the surgery cause some sort of relapse possibly?
My husband said I need to keep in perspective that it has only been a week and that I do not have a normal health situation and it normally does take me longer to recover from anything – sickness or otherwise. I guess I’m just impatient and want to get back to my sense of what normal is. I also feel that I can never fully recover in the way my body needs to because of having a young child at home. It makes it hard when he’s home on summer vacation and I’m laid up from surgery or am just too exhausted to do anything. All of the responsibility then falls on my husband and that makes me feel guilty.
I guess I’m just thinking too much and just need to concentrate on getting better! 🙂
The guilt of causing others’ extra work because we can’t do what we feel we should be doing can be quite depressing sometimes. Remember that attitude will help or hinder healing, too. And I know that’s a whole lot easier said than done! Try watching funny movies and tv shows with your child during the day. Play some quiet games where you don’t have to expend a lot of energy. Have picnics in the back yard (or in front of the tv if it’s too hot to go outside). Doing some little things like that will help both of you feel in a better frame of mind during the day.
Take care!!
Hi Sherlock, Thanks for your continued support and comments on here. I normally have a positive attitude and outlook, this is why it’s so disturbing to me. I very seldom ever cry. I have been trying to play games and color and stuff with my son – just doing little things like that to let him know I’m still here for him even though I don’t feel well. I still need to work on the guilt thing. That is one area that I have never learned how to get over. I have had to force myself though to do those things with him because of how I feel.